يا باغي الظلم

ما لا يعرفه الكثير أني أكتب باللغة العربية أحيانا... غالبا خواطر أو أشعار. ربما تجعلك الغربة تشتاق أكثر للغتك الأصلية... كتبت هذه القصيدة (لو اعتبرتوها كذلك) منذ فترة طويلة و تذكرتها... لمن ظلم و افتري في
...يوم من الأيام

(Scroll down for the English version of this poem)

يا باغي الظلم ألا تعرف الله؟

ألا يعرف صدرك خشية الله؟

!أتبكي الرحيل و تنوّح كالنساء

ألم تفكر يوما في عقاب الله؟

ألا تعرف عقاب الظالم و السارق

يا من سرقت النور من الفلاة

و النوم من عين البرئ في صباه

حتي القلب النابض في سماه؟

يا أعمي القلب و الإيمان

يا من دنست الذكرى و ما حلله الله

بغبائك و جهلك و كذبك و ما تراه

!و تدعي النبوة يا أحط شأنا من البغاة

يا من تريد الحياة و تميت غيرك

تدعي الحكمة و مفقود هو عقلك

...ألا تندم أو تخشع؟ ألا ترجو الله

و تسأله مغفرته قدر ظلمك؟

يا من طلبت الحب و أنت لا تعترف بالجميل

الرحمة و أنت أكثر الظالمين

الأمانة و ما أنت بأمين

أتريد الآن السعادة... وما أنت إلا لئيم؟

كم من مرة كذبت... افتريت

ادعيت فأخذت... و تمسكنت

ابعد يا من قصرت و أذنبت الكثير

.و حسبي الله و نعم الوكيل

Now I have always believed that something - or many things - is/are lost in translation, and the the beauty of what is written is retained in the original language. I've done my best to translate my poem to English. If you have any suggestions, please feel free to contact me.

Translation follows below:


O Seeker of injustice, don't you not know God?
Doesn't your chest know fear of God?
Weeping and mourning as women
Have you never thought about God's punishment?

Don't you know the punishment of the thief and the unjust?
You who stole the light from the wilderness
And sleep from the innocent's eyes in his youth
Even the heart beating in its sky?

O Blind of heart and faith!
You who desecrated memories and what God has allowed
With your stupidity, ignorance, lies and what you see
You claim prophecy, and you're worse than tyrants!

You want life and deaden others
You claim wisdom and your mind is missing
Don't you regret or implore? Don't you pray to God...
And ask for forgiveness as much as you have done wrong?

You ask for love and don't admit gratitude
Mercy and you are the most unfair
Honesty and you're dishonest
And now you want happiness, when you're only mean?

How many times have you lied, slandered
Acted, taken and pretended to be lame
Stay away, you who have fallen short and sinned a lot...
Allah is sufficient for me, and he is the best disposer of affairs.


© Marwa Ayad

Are You an Intuitive Empath?

Confession: I'm an intuitive empath.

• Have you been told you're overly sensitive?
• Do you feel overwhelmed in crowds?
• Do you prefer solitude over social gatherings (4+ people)?
• Do you need a lot of time on your own to recharge?
• Feel compelled to help others in pain no matter what?
• Known as a peacemaker (hate conflicts)?
• Always know others' motives and intentions as you can see right through them (so it's almost impossible being lied to or deceived)?
• Hypersensitivity to noise, scents and people talking?
• Random mood swings that have nothing to do with your life?
• Do you have a creative or an artistic nature?
• Furthermore, if you've taken the Myers-Briggs test, are you an INFP or INFJ?

If all of these apply to you, then you're an intuitive empath.

Bear in mind, this is not depression or anti-social behaviour (since actually being on your own doesn't depress you, but helps you unwind); but people like to label what they think they know, especially as not many know about being an empath.

An Empath absorbs energies and emotions around them like a sponge which can be very exhausting. They can't stand negative energy or energy vampires; it drains them more than anything you can ever imagine (I know from experience). We're only comfortable around those with positive energy, or those who don't criticize/judge/assume, etc. (even if you act otherwise, we know your intentions, remember, so unless you mean well, an empath will avoid you).

I met some of the most negative people you could imagine last year. As an empath, I would feel sick around them, even without them talking. And when you're the only empath you know in that place or a professional environment and there is no way of minimizing contact, there's nothing to say, so you keep it to yourself. Just a horrible feeling in your stomach that these few people don't mean well; they carry resentment/jealousy/hatred/doubt, etc. towards themselves, you or others. Being in a room with a few negative people can make an empath ill and struggle with their daily routines even after leaving such people because you carry their energies and vibes, and it used to take me days to start feeling better afterwards. It was pure torture. Try explaining that. Thankfully I no longer have to see them.

If someone has made an empath feel uncomfortable before, depressed or negative, it's almost impossible wanting to be around that person again and they will keep their distance. An empath likes the company of those who do not exhaust them. Simple as that.

If you have a friend or family member who is an intuitive empath, here is what you need to know:

• Always be honest with them; don't pretend or hide anything since they can always tell.
• Never be judgemental; accept them for who they are.
• Accept their advice and support, even if unasked for, since it's in their nature to want to help. Offering help is their way of showing love and support to those they care about.
• Be very considerate of the fact that they're overly sensitive (in ways you may not even comprehend), tend to avoid aggression, negative people/situations/crowds at any cost, and even violent media. Be understanding.
• Understand that an empath needs more time alone from the world. Don't force them to go out/be more social; they can only do it if they feel like it/are comfortable with the company/place, etc. However, from personal experience, an empath doesn't shy away from understanding, positive friends. In fact, it is advisable that they schedule meeting positive friends once a week or so as it helps an empath feel better afterwards. I've learned that an empath does, however, stay away from people who drain them at any cost, friends or not.
• If you break their trust or let them down once, it's almost impossible being their friend again; since trust is crucial to them.

If you're an empath, here are a few tips:

• Limit or avoid altogether negative people, energy vampires, crowds, etc.
• Meditate.
• Take a daily shower or bath; it can do wonders since water washes off any unwanted vibes.

And remember, always be yourself!

173

Your mother is still
Weeping
Disbelieving
That you are gone
Killed by thugs
in a football match
in Port Said

Were you 15 or 17?
What was your crime?
Your blood was still
Warm
When the SCAF said it was a
MASSACRE
That could happen anywhere in the world!

173
In the morgue, you were given
A number
Your life, your death
Condensed
in a freaking, lifeless number
Your innocent body
Wrapped in a black, rubbish bag
Oh, wait...
It could happen anywhere in the world!

Mother of the martyrs,
We shall not forget...
Their holy blood isn't sacrificed in vain
Your child now rests in heaven
And we're here in a hell
That has no name.

--Marwa Ayad